i don't know how or why i always end up in this kind of place.
the place where it seems that all my friends who never have boyfriends
or had given up on love, are now as happy as can be.
and i, the one who always tries to support them,
tries to convince them that love will be there for them when least expected.
the one who's there to listen to their doubts and fears
when they cannot see how much their boy really loves them..
it seems i'm only allowed to touch the shiny edge of love,
to walk around with my head in the air for say.. two weeks.
only to be crashing down again.
it would be mean to say that i'm jealous of them,
i know that, but it's true.
all i want is what we had a week ago.
him and me, sharing a bed for an entire day.
getting along as if there was no world around us.